sunshinee.

One problem with gazing too frequently into the past is that we may turn around to find the future has run out on us. 

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up.  

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If you're in a bad situation, don't worry it'll change.  If you're in a good situation, don't worry it'll change.

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Everytime you smile at someone, it is an action of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing

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Love is much like a wild rose, beautiful and calm, but willing to draw blood in its defense.

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When you are a mother, you are never really alone in your thoughts.  A mother always has to think twice, once for herself and once for her child. 

oh sun.

The sunshine is coming out!!!  this week its supposed to stay in the 60's!!! i hope sooo!!
im done with all this gloomy rain!.. the weekend was nice.. back yard livin, gardening,cuttin down bushes and putting in some pretty flowers.. poppys are sprouting up!! put the trampoline up.. zane LOVES.. cant wait for some bbqin. and i cannot wait to put zanes little pool up! he will love it! Zane helps so good doing yard work! he has his little shovels and  buckets and runs around and really tries to help out! he loves being outside so much i love it.. i think we might take him fishin for the first time over memorial day/weekend.. that sounds fun.. I cannot wait for late night park runs.. well more like walks.. :) its going to be a good summer!
Byeeee

wow

Its been a long week. i been soo tired after Easter and all that jazzzz.
Easter was great! Zane had a blast pointing at every easter egg he found
saying BALL, BALL Ball.. hah he is a goof!
He got alot of stuff like a little swimming pool, toys, candy and all that.
we had a big easter egg hung in our bac yard with about 200 eggs
between 4 kids and Zane it was alot of fun to hide them and watch
how excited they all were after finding them!
Later Travis, Zane and I went to my grandparents house, She has
Mexican food every year for easter.. i guess she just got sick of the traditional ham, turkey dinners
hahah anyways it was still great!! i LOVE my grandmas salsa!
My dads family makes thier own alcohol.. Its called Red Eye ahah
trav took 2 little shots of it and was about tipsy it was funny.. i had some SHNAAAPS (inside joke)
peach ones they were goood!! all the grandkids and great grandkids were there.. its soo crazy to see
how much my family has grown since i was young.. we all hardly fit in my grandparents house anymore.
it was nice to see everyone tho.. after that me and trav started heading home to do some relaxing..
Later that night after putting Zane to sleep we did some much need cuddling and watched Johna Hex.
it was a weird movie..
IT WAS A GREAT EASTER!!
Work is getting slower and slower and Boring.. i want to go home right now as im writing this.
this week has kicked my buttt!! im exhuasted. i dont know why tho.
i cant wait to get off and be with my little fam bam!!!

my heart hurts

i dont want to hurt

you have no idea how closely

i wrapped myself around

your heart

i miss the way we were

so crazy about

each other



lil shiii

Zane says shiit.. hahah.. its funny. he is a crazy kid. he is getting soo big.

 its crazy in four short months he will be 2 years old!! i just

cannot believe it. i remember the day he was born.. just like it was yesterday..

Zane is my little love.

Forever

oh a nice lil break

This weekend was so nice.. me and trav actually got a babysitter.. we didnt do much.. we went to the pie ate some pizza and then actually went and picked zane up cause we missed him.. how lame are we!! we get a break we have been dying for and still want Zane with us.. makes me smile.. but my weekend mostly consisted of Coffee, Country Music and Cleaning.. is was exhilerating i guess. it felt nice to get some much needed spring cleaning done.. Monday came way to fast.. i hope the week goes as fast as it came.. even tho i work this weekend! the extra hours will be so nice on the payheck!! $$$$$ i need money bad.. i know everyone does in these times.. but its that much better when your workin for it.. oh my..well good bye blog. sorry for not so much... gooood dayyy.

*In the middle of my little mess I forget how big im blessed*

im always talking about what i want, or what i want to change or why im mad, sad, and blah blah blah.. but i have so many things to be thankful for..

*My beautifl baby boy Zane Anthony.

*a sometimes great boyfriend who would do anything i ask.

* a job making decent money

*a roof over my head.

*a vehicle

* clothes on my back

*shoes on my feet 

*food in my stomach (not now but usually)

i take alot for granted.. and i shouldnt.. i have alot more then some people have. and thinking about these things should get me throught the rough days.  gonna keep positive and wish and work for the best life possible.. <3

-byeee for now.